I heard this song on a commercial and immediately went online to see who did it and I found the video :) It made me think of myself and all of you, enjoy XOXO
Be OK - Ingrid Michealson on YouTube
Here's the lyrics in case you aren't able to watch the video right now!
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts
I just want to know today, know today, know today
I just want to know something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok
Just give me back my pieces
Just give them back to me please
Just give me back my pieces
And let me hold my broken parts
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok
Showing posts with label recovery. Show all posts
Showing posts with label recovery. Show all posts
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Looks like I've been blocking...Time to hop back on the road to RECOVERY!
Dear fellow survivors and supporters :),
It's been a while since I've updated the blog or said anything. Life's been busy with work and friends. It's also been too busy to really focus on recovering. It's weird, it's like life does not stop for you to recover and work on yourself but you have to if you want to be sane. Blocking is almost natural because what else can you do when you have work, school, friends, activities. But no more excuses, I need to hop back on the road to recovery. I'm thinking and there's tons of different ways to help yourself heal everyday. Even if it's just sitting down at night after a busy day and reflecting on how far you've come since it happened, how you reacted differently to things today than you would have right after your attack happened. Or if your attack recently happened sit down and reflect on how you've felt in certain places today or how you've reacted to things people have said or did different from before. Try to think why you've reacted or felt this way. Recognizing feels and emotions are majorly important. Once you recognize them, figure out where exactly they come from, they become super easy to understand so they don't feel so overwhelming because my God them things could drown me if I didn't learn how to recognize them.
Just my thoughts of the night, hope you all are doing well XOXO
It's been a while since I've updated the blog or said anything. Life's been busy with work and friends. It's also been too busy to really focus on recovering. It's weird, it's like life does not stop for you to recover and work on yourself but you have to if you want to be sane. Blocking is almost natural because what else can you do when you have work, school, friends, activities. But no more excuses, I need to hop back on the road to recovery. I'm thinking and there's tons of different ways to help yourself heal everyday. Even if it's just sitting down at night after a busy day and reflecting on how far you've come since it happened, how you reacted differently to things today than you would have right after your attack happened. Or if your attack recently happened sit down and reflect on how you've felt in certain places today or how you've reacted to things people have said or did different from before. Try to think why you've reacted or felt this way. Recognizing feels and emotions are majorly important. Once you recognize them, figure out where exactly they come from, they become super easy to understand so they don't feel so overwhelming because my God them things could drown me if I didn't learn how to recognize them.
Just my thoughts of the night, hope you all are doing well XOXO
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Don't Confuse Helping Other Survivors with Healing Yourself
I remember when it all first went down, after a couple weeks my mom had found some websites online for me. They were forums where other survivors talked about their problems and others gave advice and such. I immediately started going on there helping people, or at least thinking I was helping people. It had just happend to me, how could I have really been helping people? I was talking about things I really didn't know much about. I thought I was healing myself by helping out other people. I sat down that night to write a self help book for rape survivors, that's when I realized I didn't have anything to write. I didn't know what to write because I was just raped, I was at my lowest point ever and didn't understand how I was feeling or what was coming next nonetheless how to deal with it. That's when my mom told me I have to help myself before I can help others.
Going around attempting to help everyone else takes attention off of yourself which is another form of blocking out what happend to you and placing your attention on other people.
So everyone, help yourself before you help others. Lets say someone asks for help with nightmares, if you've been through them and you've handled them properly, help them. If you're still having nightmares and they overwhelm you and you don't know what to do, don't try and help. Help yourself, you have to be strong before you can give strength to others.
Going around attempting to help everyone else takes attention off of yourself which is another form of blocking out what happend to you and placing your attention on other people.
So everyone, help yourself before you help others. Lets say someone asks for help with nightmares, if you've been through them and you've handled them properly, help them. If you're still having nightmares and they overwhelm you and you don't know what to do, don't try and help. Help yourself, you have to be strong before you can give strength to others.
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